OK so that's an uncharacteristically grand title for how I am feeling right now. I am away from home and in these moments alone I think about what my life would be like if everything were perfect for me.
Much of it is perfect. I have a wonderful family and I actually enjoy my day job but the inevitable conclusion I always reach is that I wish I had more time to do music and that I wish I could scrape enough of a living from it. I have spent so long doing a day job in the hope that one day I would be secure financially and that that would allow me to explore whatever I wanted to do with music. I now find that as I get older then responsibilities grow and the treadmill I am on always seems to keep edging a little faster and faster so that when the day comes that I am ready to jump off of it then I'll be worried that I might fall and break something essential I use often.....like a leg or a laptop.
Yet these vague but persistant dreams will never come to fruition unless I start planning to make them happen and to my mind that means setting small achievable goals. Whether I will plot all my goals on this blog is not a definite but I will put a few here in the spirit that by throwing them into the open (albeit seldom scrutinized) then I may be better motivated to make them happen.
So in a rough order I really ought to...
- get the album finished so it can be sold in a virtual environment. It shouldn't be difficult to do and it's mad that I have had periods of apathy on something that is this important. I have a willing pal in Toby who has helped me enormously and it is very close to being done
- get a better microphone
- finish some of the 2 dozen half finished songs I have knocking around
- write more songs, I have been in a period of not writing much for about 4 months and I am now experiencing lots of ideas for new material and I must get this written and recorded
- learn more about studio work (this one actually stands a little more explanation. I have been around music, writing, recording and performing for large portions of my life but I have always been a more creative prescence who needed a grounded do-er alongside me to make the technical things happen. I sometimes scare myself when I really think about how little I pick up and retain about the technical side of studio work. I know why it is. It is because my brain works in a funny way in that it does not retain the things its not interested in. In fact my memory is pretty bad all round come to think about it but it's borderline nuts that I have stayed clear of gaining a better understanding of what would be so useful to me. I am building a studio after all and while I know the basics it will soon not be enough to skate along just on that)
- look at other ways of getting music out there digitally. It appears that a well chosen cover version on youtube gets a crazy amount of views and that could open up a better route to my own songs
- go to bed...move this one to the top of the list...goodnight!
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